So, I logged my first session in May! AND IT WAS A WINNER!!!!
Not that things went so smoothly. There was a point during the evening that I seriously was beginning to think that I was cursed.
Things started out well enough. I called a raise in the bb with AQ the flop was A/10/6. I checked to the preflop raiser, he bet and the button called. I gave some serious thought to raising here but decided to play like a pussy and just called. The turn was a 4. checked around. I decided at this point that I had the best hand. River, 2. I led out for about 1/2 of the pot and the button called. I flipped up my hand and he said...wait, we have one more card???!!! lol. So, that was nice.
I then have 8/2 in the bb. Flop is K/J/8. UTG bets $2. I think that he meant to bet $10(2 reds instead of 2 whites) and everyone in the hand called, so I said, wth and called. The turn is a 2. I check, UTG bets $10, everyone folds to me. I raise to $25 and he calls. I bet the river and he calls with K/10 and I win a nice little pot with utter crap. Always a bonus.
Then things fall fucking apart. Basically I flop top set/middle set twice and get it all in on the flop vs a flush draw and both times, they hit. I lose $400 in these 2 hands.
People play so bad!
I am down to $100. I pick up a couple of small pots...build it up to $150, then this hand comes up. Guy to my right raises to $10. I call with pocket 6s as does the small blind. Flop is A/9/6, 2 spades. Sb bets $10, OR raises to $35. I reraise to $100. Sb folds, OR says, all right, Ill gamble with ya and moves in. I call and of course, he has a flush draw.....and you know what???? HE DOESN'T HIT!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!
I pick up few more little pots and leave $330 up!
A winning session! I had totally forgotten what it felt like to have one of those under my belt!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Thursday, May 1, 2008
New Month/New Attitude
I am so sorry to everyone who keeps emailing me asking when to expect a new post. I have only promised this 100 times over the past couple of weeks. It is just so hard to write about poker when you are not playing well/not winning.
So April, royally sucked ass. I am not even going to post how stuck I am/was because I am so sick of thinking about it. Basically I had 2 sessions where I lost more than 2 buyins and then the rest of the month was basically winning/losing the same $200-$300 over and over. I only played 2 days of the last 10 days of the month($1/$2) because I was feeling so defeated.
Only 3 hands from those 2 sessions even stand out in my mind. The first one happened at The Venetian(actually they all happened at The Venetian, I so need to stop playing there, for reasons other than poker, mainly) I had JJ utg. There was this loose aggressive player at the table who raised preflop almost every hand. My friend Daniel was sitting to my right and had played with him earlier in the day so he filled me in on his playing style(I love poker buddies!) Now, I know my rep at this table, if I raise, I am probably not going to get any action, so I limp. I hear the cries now.....limping with Jacks...Oh my god...what are you doing???? Trust me...geez. lol
So, I limp and sure enough..crazy guy raises to $13. 4 callers to me. My original plan had been to raise but with all of these callers, I decided to just call. I am not sure why I had decided to do this but set mining sounded like the way to go. Flop is J/10/6 2 clubs. SB bets $10(into a $70 pot!!!) I raise to $60. The OR(in the 1 seat) then shows his hand to the dealer, ranting about how he cant believe that he is going to fold and shit....which leads me to believe that he has a J. This donkey is not laying down an over pair. The SB calls. The turn is a 10c. SB checks and I bet $100, leaving $150 behind. I figured that he had to have had some sort of a draw, since I thought that the OR had the case J and I was hoping that it was the flush draw. He calls. Now thisis where most players are idiots. He has now put $173 in to this pot and I only have $150 behind. He should have given this situation some thought. He should have realized that by calling the $100 on the turn that he was going to have to call the $150 on the river. I dont recall what the river was but the $150 went it and the guy folded. Geez. He folded getting almost 4 to 1 on the call. He showed the case J. Apparently the OR had a 10 as he kept moaning about how the pot would have been his as he made trips on the turn.
So, the last 2 hands were from a session a few nights ago. I was card dead for about 2.5 hours, I had only raised once from the C/O with A/K and whiffed. I am not betting into 4 people on a paired face card board. I then pick up JJ in the C/O and raise to $12 and get 3 callers. The board comes 10/7/4, 2 spades. Checks to me, I bet $30, the button calls the SB calls and then MP goes all in for $63!!! Im like WTF???? I mean I have to call...it is $32 more to me for a $200 pot! But I also want to protect my hand and I figured that these other 2 guys have draws so I push all in for $200 more which covers both of those guys. They fold. The guy shows his pocket 9s when he hits a set on the turn but then the river is an 8 and I make a straight. He then bitches about how I sucked out(????). I dont have to say anything because 2 guys closer to him not so quietly inform him that I was a huge favorite when the money went it.
Then the last hand which took the session for a $100 winner to a break even session for me. UTG raises to $15. This is the first time that he has raised since he sat down and really has not played many hands at all. I knew that I was beat. I know...Im a "soul reader"....but I knew right then that I was beat. I look down at pocket Qs...god damnit! Of course, this is where I suck and even though I know that I am beat, I call and then get it all in on a 7 high board. He shows pocket As and I thank god that he only had $100 behind.
So, this is a new month. A fresh start. My goals for this month are pretty simple. Learn how to win again. Which really means that I have to put April behind me and stop playing like everyone is going to hit their 2 outters against me.
Everything in my life is so complicated right now. I just want poker to be easy so that I have the mental energy to devote to all of the other screwed up aspects of my life. God, that already sounds negative.
So April, royally sucked ass. I am not even going to post how stuck I am/was because I am so sick of thinking about it. Basically I had 2 sessions where I lost more than 2 buyins and then the rest of the month was basically winning/losing the same $200-$300 over and over. I only played 2 days of the last 10 days of the month($1/$2) because I was feeling so defeated.
Only 3 hands from those 2 sessions even stand out in my mind. The first one happened at The Venetian(actually they all happened at The Venetian, I so need to stop playing there, for reasons other than poker, mainly) I had JJ utg. There was this loose aggressive player at the table who raised preflop almost every hand. My friend Daniel was sitting to my right and had played with him earlier in the day so he filled me in on his playing style(I love poker buddies!) Now, I know my rep at this table, if I raise, I am probably not going to get any action, so I limp. I hear the cries now.....limping with Jacks...Oh my god...what are you doing???? Trust me...geez. lol
So, I limp and sure enough..crazy guy raises to $13. 4 callers to me. My original plan had been to raise but with all of these callers, I decided to just call. I am not sure why I had decided to do this but set mining sounded like the way to go. Flop is J/10/6 2 clubs. SB bets $10(into a $70 pot!!!) I raise to $60. The OR(in the 1 seat) then shows his hand to the dealer, ranting about how he cant believe that he is going to fold and shit....which leads me to believe that he has a J. This donkey is not laying down an over pair. The SB calls. The turn is a 10c. SB checks and I bet $100, leaving $150 behind. I figured that he had to have had some sort of a draw, since I thought that the OR had the case J and I was hoping that it was the flush draw. He calls. Now thisis where most players are idiots. He has now put $173 in to this pot and I only have $150 behind. He should have given this situation some thought. He should have realized that by calling the $100 on the turn that he was going to have to call the $150 on the river. I dont recall what the river was but the $150 went it and the guy folded. Geez. He folded getting almost 4 to 1 on the call. He showed the case J. Apparently the OR had a 10 as he kept moaning about how the pot would have been his as he made trips on the turn.
So, the last 2 hands were from a session a few nights ago. I was card dead for about 2.5 hours, I had only raised once from the C/O with A/K and whiffed. I am not betting into 4 people on a paired face card board. I then pick up JJ in the C/O and raise to $12 and get 3 callers. The board comes 10/7/4, 2 spades. Checks to me, I bet $30, the button calls the SB calls and then MP goes all in for $63!!! Im like WTF???? I mean I have to call...it is $32 more to me for a $200 pot! But I also want to protect my hand and I figured that these other 2 guys have draws so I push all in for $200 more which covers both of those guys. They fold. The guy shows his pocket 9s when he hits a set on the turn but then the river is an 8 and I make a straight. He then bitches about how I sucked out(????). I dont have to say anything because 2 guys closer to him not so quietly inform him that I was a huge favorite when the money went it.
Then the last hand which took the session for a $100 winner to a break even session for me. UTG raises to $15. This is the first time that he has raised since he sat down and really has not played many hands at all. I knew that I was beat. I know...Im a "soul reader"....but I knew right then that I was beat. I look down at pocket Qs...god damnit! Of course, this is where I suck and even though I know that I am beat, I call and then get it all in on a 7 high board. He shows pocket As and I thank god that he only had $100 behind.
So, this is a new month. A fresh start. My goals for this month are pretty simple. Learn how to win again. Which really means that I have to put April behind me and stop playing like everyone is going to hit their 2 outters against me.
Everything in my life is so complicated right now. I just want poker to be easy so that I have the mental energy to devote to all of the other screwed up aspects of my life. God, that already sounds negative.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Will This Ever End?
I am on the coldest streak of my life. I actually took the time to calculate yesterday how much money I would have won if I had won every pot where my money went in as a huge favorite in this session alone....$3k!!! Instead, I lost $700.
The evening started out well. I lost a few small pots but nothing too damaging. Then I ended up chopping what would have been a $300 pot when someone caught runner runner to make the same straight that I had flopped.
The first big pot that I won was when I had limped along on the button with K/10d. The BB raised to $20. Why he only raised to $20 when there is already $30 in the pot with the limpers, I cannot figure. I call, I have position and getting 5/1 on my money. Flop is K88, 1 diamond. BB bets $25(into a $120 pot!), I have to call. Turn is the 9d. He bets $100 of his $150 that he has left. I ask for time. I figure at this point that I am behind...Im thinking that he has a bigger K. But I also figure that any 8, K, 10 or diamond will make me the winner(or chop with a K or 8) so I put him all in. He calls and shows K/Q. A diamond hits the river so that was a nice little pot.
I then proceed to flop the first of 10 sets of the evening. Only 2 of which hold up. I have pocket 9s in the BB. Flop is AhQh9d. I check, UTG bets, Button goes all in, I call. He shows K/3h and hits it on the turn. He apologizes and says that he thought that he had flopped it.
The next one is so sick....I have had nightmares about it since. I have pocket 66s in the bb. Flop is J64 rainbow. I check, UTG bets a pot sized bet and a very laggy button calls and I call. I dont think that I have anything really to worry about and decide to let the UTG take another stab at it. Turn is a Q. I check, UTG makes another pot sized bet, button calls, I raise all in for another $400 more. There is about $275 in the pot. UTG folds Q/J face up! Button calls. River is a 5. He shows 7/8...he called $400 on the turn with a gutshot. I ask him how he can make such a call with 4 outs and he said...'I was gonna bluff you if I missed' ...wtf??? I was all in...how could he have bluffed me???
Then I flop a set of 7s on an 872, 2 spade board, I bet, someone checkraises me, I put him all in for $250 and he calls with a flush draw and hits and once again, I dont fill up.
I did make some excellent laydowns. I laid down pocket Js on a 6 high board. He showed AA. I only lost the $25 preflop raise. I also lost the minimum($75) with pocket 10s on a 9 high board.
The guy had flopped top set. I flopped top 2 facing a bet and raise and folded. So, money saved is just as good as money won, eh?
So, I am down to $175 after being in for $1200. I pick up a few small pots then I get QQ and I raise to $30, 2 callers. Flop is JJ9. SB checks, I check and the button bets $60. I checked because I was going to get the money in regardless. I thought that the button might take a stab at it with A/K or a smaller pr if checked to but I did not think that he would call a bet. So, he bet, I move all in and he folds. So I picked up an extra $60 by checking.
I manage to win little $50 pots here and there and end up leaving with $500.
So, I am running bad and poker and running bad at life. One month ago, I was on top of both. I loved poker, was doing extremely well at it and my life was a happy one. What I wouldn't give to relive the past 30 days of my life.
The evening started out well. I lost a few small pots but nothing too damaging. Then I ended up chopping what would have been a $300 pot when someone caught runner runner to make the same straight that I had flopped.
The first big pot that I won was when I had limped along on the button with K/10d. The BB raised to $20. Why he only raised to $20 when there is already $30 in the pot with the limpers, I cannot figure. I call, I have position and getting 5/1 on my money. Flop is K88, 1 diamond. BB bets $25(into a $120 pot!), I have to call. Turn is the 9d. He bets $100 of his $150 that he has left. I ask for time. I figure at this point that I am behind...Im thinking that he has a bigger K. But I also figure that any 8, K, 10 or diamond will make me the winner(or chop with a K or 8) so I put him all in. He calls and shows K/Q. A diamond hits the river so that was a nice little pot.
I then proceed to flop the first of 10 sets of the evening. Only 2 of which hold up. I have pocket 9s in the BB. Flop is AhQh9d. I check, UTG bets, Button goes all in, I call. He shows K/3h and hits it on the turn. He apologizes and says that he thought that he had flopped it.
The next one is so sick....I have had nightmares about it since. I have pocket 66s in the bb. Flop is J64 rainbow. I check, UTG bets a pot sized bet and a very laggy button calls and I call. I dont think that I have anything really to worry about and decide to let the UTG take another stab at it. Turn is a Q. I check, UTG makes another pot sized bet, button calls, I raise all in for another $400 more. There is about $275 in the pot. UTG folds Q/J face up! Button calls. River is a 5. He shows 7/8...he called $400 on the turn with a gutshot. I ask him how he can make such a call with 4 outs and he said...'I was gonna bluff you if I missed' ...wtf??? I was all in...how could he have bluffed me???
Then I flop a set of 7s on an 872, 2 spade board, I bet, someone checkraises me, I put him all in for $250 and he calls with a flush draw and hits and once again, I dont fill up.
I did make some excellent laydowns. I laid down pocket Js on a 6 high board. He showed AA. I only lost the $25 preflop raise. I also lost the minimum($75) with pocket 10s on a 9 high board.
The guy had flopped top set. I flopped top 2 facing a bet and raise and folded. So, money saved is just as good as money won, eh?
So, I am down to $175 after being in for $1200. I pick up a few small pots then I get QQ and I raise to $30, 2 callers. Flop is JJ9. SB checks, I check and the button bets $60. I checked because I was going to get the money in regardless. I thought that the button might take a stab at it with A/K or a smaller pr if checked to but I did not think that he would call a bet. So, he bet, I move all in and he folds. So I picked up an extra $60 by checking.
I manage to win little $50 pots here and there and end up leaving with $500.
So, I am running bad and poker and running bad at life. One month ago, I was on top of both. I loved poker, was doing extremely well at it and my life was a happy one. What I wouldn't give to relive the past 30 days of my life.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Coward
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do. - Eleanor Roosevelt
Thursday, April 10, 2008
I Suck
I have got to get out of my head!!! Why can I not do this??? For 6 hours...why can't I just tune out the constant.....shit streaming through my brain?
Anyway, despite the above statement...I actually made money last night. $320...and once again, I had to fight back from a huge deficit to get there. One of my first hands, I pick up KK in the BB. A MP tourist from Orlando(that I had spoken with earlier and I could tell was very inexperienced) had raised to $25. I reraise to $60. He calls. Flop is AAK. I check, he bets, I call. Turn is a 10. I check, he bets, I raise, he goes all in, I call. He shows A/7. River, of course is a 7. Standard:(
Moving on. There was this guy in the 10 seat( I was in the 1 seat) that was just a whale. He owns a bunch of bar-b-que restaurants here. He was also a downright awful poker player. Thank God, for him or I might not have ever made it into the black. He chased(and bet) any draw. He raised with any 2 high cards, any pocket pr. I have a 3 hour run of 9/2, so I ask for a new setup. I know, I know....I hate people that do this too but I thought that psychologically, it might help me out a bit. The first hand after the switch, I get QQ utg in a straddled pot. I raise to $40. Mr Barbque calls(of course, he never folds pre) Flop is 10 high, 2 spades. He donks into me for $50, I raise to $150 and he folds. Then this hand comes up and God, I could have murdered this drunk guy at the table! I raise to $35 in the BB with JJ. Barbque calls. Flop is 9dJd4s. I bet $60 and Mr Bbq(very drunk at this point) says...I have a J...A/K is no good. Turn is 6c. He checks, I say..all in( I have like $600 behind)...he asks me how much??? Im in heaven. I pushed because I know that if he does in fact have a J, he will call. Then this old fucker at the table says..."what are you doing...she can beat a J" so, he folds!!! Why would anyone ever think that it was ok to say something like this???
So, our table breaks and I move to this table that has this awful lady from the night before...seriously, she never folded! She went through $2k in about 2 hours the previous night, so I made sure that I sat right to her left. I pick up about $100 by limping with 5/7c. The flop is Kc5sJc. Checked around...turn is 5d. SB bets $30, I raise to $75. He calls. River is a 6d. He checks, I check. He shows a busted 6 high flush draw.
Then the miracle of all hands..how this won, I will never know.
I limp with K/9c on the button. Flop is 9/8/5, 2 diamonds. The bbq guy bets $30, crazy lady calls, I have no clue where I am right now and I know that I have a look of befuddlement on my face because the super tight SB says, (with $30 in his hand, ready to make the call) "I know...what do they have??" So I call, SB calls and then a MP guy calls! The really hard thing about playing with really bad players is that you can NEVER put them on a hand. I am so completely lost at this point. Turn, thankfully, is the Ks. I think that is a good card for me but with the way these guys are playing...who knows, right? BBq bets $100, crazy lady calls, I announce very loudly, RAISE. I throw 3 $100 bills in. SB folds, as does MP calling station. BBq says, "uh oh, I know what that means". He folds. Then crazy lady calls(she is now all in). I dodge a diamond on the river and rake in a nice pot.
I then leave. It is now 3:30am and I am whooped.
Poker is beginning to feel like a bad, argumentative relationship for me. It just seems like so much work lately. Is it worth all of the fighting and arguing for the occasional night of good sex?
I already have one of those relationships in my life(minus the sex part)....do I really want another?
Anyway, despite the above statement...I actually made money last night. $320...and once again, I had to fight back from a huge deficit to get there. One of my first hands, I pick up KK in the BB. A MP tourist from Orlando(that I had spoken with earlier and I could tell was very inexperienced) had raised to $25. I reraise to $60. He calls. Flop is AAK. I check, he bets, I call. Turn is a 10. I check, he bets, I raise, he goes all in, I call. He shows A/7. River, of course is a 7. Standard:(
Moving on. There was this guy in the 10 seat( I was in the 1 seat) that was just a whale. He owns a bunch of bar-b-que restaurants here. He was also a downright awful poker player. Thank God, for him or I might not have ever made it into the black. He chased(and bet) any draw. He raised with any 2 high cards, any pocket pr. I have a 3 hour run of 9/2, so I ask for a new setup. I know, I know....I hate people that do this too but I thought that psychologically, it might help me out a bit. The first hand after the switch, I get QQ utg in a straddled pot. I raise to $40. Mr Barbque calls(of course, he never folds pre) Flop is 10 high, 2 spades. He donks into me for $50, I raise to $150 and he folds. Then this hand comes up and God, I could have murdered this drunk guy at the table! I raise to $35 in the BB with JJ. Barbque calls. Flop is 9dJd4s. I bet $60 and Mr Bbq(very drunk at this point) says...I have a J...A/K is no good. Turn is 6c. He checks, I say..all in( I have like $600 behind)...he asks me how much??? Im in heaven. I pushed because I know that if he does in fact have a J, he will call. Then this old fucker at the table says..."what are you doing...she can beat a J" so, he folds!!! Why would anyone ever think that it was ok to say something like this???
So, our table breaks and I move to this table that has this awful lady from the night before...seriously, she never folded! She went through $2k in about 2 hours the previous night, so I made sure that I sat right to her left. I pick up about $100 by limping with 5/7c. The flop is Kc5sJc. Checked around...turn is 5d. SB bets $30, I raise to $75. He calls. River is a 6d. He checks, I check. He shows a busted 6 high flush draw.
Then the miracle of all hands..how this won, I will never know.
I limp with K/9c on the button. Flop is 9/8/5, 2 diamonds. The bbq guy bets $30, crazy lady calls, I have no clue where I am right now and I know that I have a look of befuddlement on my face because the super tight SB says, (with $30 in his hand, ready to make the call) "I know...what do they have??" So I call, SB calls and then a MP guy calls! The really hard thing about playing with really bad players is that you can NEVER put them on a hand. I am so completely lost at this point. Turn, thankfully, is the Ks. I think that is a good card for me but with the way these guys are playing...who knows, right? BBq bets $100, crazy lady calls, I announce very loudly, RAISE. I throw 3 $100 bills in. SB folds, as does MP calling station. BBq says, "uh oh, I know what that means". He folds. Then crazy lady calls(she is now all in). I dodge a diamond on the river and rake in a nice pot.
I then leave. It is now 3:30am and I am whooped.
Poker is beginning to feel like a bad, argumentative relationship for me. It just seems like so much work lately. Is it worth all of the fighting and arguing for the occasional night of good sex?
I already have one of those relationships in my life(minus the sex part)....do I really want another?
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Losing Faith In The Human Race
I feel so discouraged today. I have said for years that there is nothing that a human being could do that would surprise me. Until recently, that statement held true. I have seen both ends of the human spectrum over the past week. I have experienced great kindness and support from a complete stranger and massive cruelness from someone that I believed cared about me.
I am bringing this up because I believe it has affected my game. I have had the worst run at poker over the past week. I am unsure as to whether it is variance or my inabilty to completely focus on my game. We shall see.
So, last night was another all nighter. I tried so hard to start off on the right foot. There was really no one at my table at first to flirt with so, I flirted with the only man that I could. Things started off on a downswing. I could not pick up a decent hand! I finally pick up 2 red Qs, raise, get 4 callers and the flop is K high all clubs! So I am in at this point for $600 when I pick up pocket As in the bb. There is a local on the button and he is seriously tilting off his money. He just tried to run a $450 bluff on a calling station. I have too much compassion for these types of people, I really do. I need to just let their crazy asses give away all of their money. But, NOOOOO, I have to try and be their savior. Well, never again! So, asshole raises his button to $25, sb folds, I pop it to $100 and say, Michael...I have As. What the fuck does he do?....he calls! Anyway, long story short, he wipes me out. The funniest thing about the whole story is right after, he says....hey Jess, we're still friends right? I politely say, Fuck No! we're not friends anymore and then I change tables.
So, I am in for 1k...and THANK GOD for miracles. One of my favorite dealers, Jake, sits down at my table. First off, he is hella sexy....blond hair, baby blue eyes, this super long soft eyelashes, very flirty.....*sigh* I ask him to please turn the cards around...I dont have to wait long. This table is a total limpfest...if anyone ever raises ..it is to $15. I am dealt Q/10d utg and limp. Normally, I dont like playing this hand UTG but if I have to call a raise of $10, Im fine with that.
Flop is 9d/Jd/7c! Nice flop for me, I would say! The flop gets checked around. The turn is 8s. The Sb bets $25, I raise to $60(dont want to lose anyone here). He calls. River is 4d. Sb checks..I bet $100 and he calls...shows the lone 10 and I rake in a nice pot. I wish that I had put out a small, pot building bet on the flop. I have been trying to work on bet sizing and pot building lately. This hand, I will rate as a C+.
So, I dont play another hand until my button. I pick up Ad/Kh and raise to $25. A MP limper calls. Flop is K46 all diamonds....Jake is on fire! The caller donks into me...$45! I decide to just call. I dont want to lose K/Q, K/J here. Turn is 7c. He donks again for $45. I pop it to $120 and he calls! River is a 10d! He checks, I bet $150 and he calls without a diamond in his hand!
Our table breaks and we disperse. I choose this table that is full of internet donkeys. I could hear them from my table talking about how bad live players are, spouting SPR, and using words like fold equity and value, and talking about how bad Phil Ivey plays. *eyeroll*
I dont get involved in too many hands. I folded pre 2 hands where I would have flopped the nuts and won massive pots. 20/20.
There is a straddle on almost every pot....not me of course...I prefer a different type of live straddle....if you know what I mean. Geez...I sound horrible...can you tell that it has been awhile??!!??
I pick up A/Qh in MP and raise. 2 callers. Flop is Q high 2 hearts! Yay me...I bet a 3/4 sized bet A wee high, I know but I know that this guy would call if he had a Q or any drawing hand and I wanted him to think that I was protecting my hand against the flush draw. Turn is an A. This is where I might have misstepped. I bet about 2/3 of the pot. He folded. After thinking about this later...I think that I should have checked the A...let him think that it was a scare card and maybe he could bluff the little live girl player off of the pot. Hmmm.
SO...sitting doing nothing, trying not to fall asleep at the table....I seriously have no stamina anymore. I am dealt Q/9s on the button. I raise. The SB reraises me...weel, so much for stealing the blinds! The BB calls, so I decide to call as well...didnt want them to think that I was stealing!
Flop is Ks/Qd/8s. The SB bets 1/3 of the pot!!???!!! The BB folds. I calls. Turn is the 10s. Sb checks. At this point, I am confused. I am thinking A/K maybe a set of Ks...I bet 3/4 of the pot. Then he starts talking....asking "why so much"..."how much do you have behind"? He then calls. River is a 3c. He checks...and this is where I totally lose it...wtf am I thinking???? I look at him...think about the talking and sitting with the 2nd fucking nuts, I CHECK! He shows a set of Ks!!!! I could have easily gotten another hundred or so out of him!!!
So, at this point, I decide that I have played way past my expiration date and call it a night(or morning if you wanna get technical).
So, I leave dead even....I suppose that I should be happy that I fought my way back from a $1000 deficit but I'm not. I am not happy about alot of things right now and I think that it has seriously impacted poker.
I have never felt so disillusioned.
I am bringing this up because I believe it has affected my game. I have had the worst run at poker over the past week. I am unsure as to whether it is variance or my inabilty to completely focus on my game. We shall see.
So, last night was another all nighter. I tried so hard to start off on the right foot. There was really no one at my table at first to flirt with so, I flirted with the only man that I could. Things started off on a downswing. I could not pick up a decent hand! I finally pick up 2 red Qs, raise, get 4 callers and the flop is K high all clubs! So I am in at this point for $600 when I pick up pocket As in the bb. There is a local on the button and he is seriously tilting off his money. He just tried to run a $450 bluff on a calling station. I have too much compassion for these types of people, I really do. I need to just let their crazy asses give away all of their money. But, NOOOOO, I have to try and be their savior. Well, never again! So, asshole raises his button to $25, sb folds, I pop it to $100 and say, Michael...I have As. What the fuck does he do?....he calls! Anyway, long story short, he wipes me out. The funniest thing about the whole story is right after, he says....hey Jess, we're still friends right? I politely say, Fuck No! we're not friends anymore and then I change tables.
So, I am in for 1k...and THANK GOD for miracles. One of my favorite dealers, Jake, sits down at my table. First off, he is hella sexy....blond hair, baby blue eyes, this super long soft eyelashes, very flirty.....*sigh* I ask him to please turn the cards around...I dont have to wait long. This table is a total limpfest...if anyone ever raises ..it is to $15. I am dealt Q/10d utg and limp. Normally, I dont like playing this hand UTG but if I have to call a raise of $10, Im fine with that.
Flop is 9d/Jd/7c! Nice flop for me, I would say! The flop gets checked around. The turn is 8s. The Sb bets $25, I raise to $60(dont want to lose anyone here). He calls. River is 4d. Sb checks..I bet $100 and he calls...shows the lone 10 and I rake in a nice pot. I wish that I had put out a small, pot building bet on the flop. I have been trying to work on bet sizing and pot building lately. This hand, I will rate as a C+.
So, I dont play another hand until my button. I pick up Ad/Kh and raise to $25. A MP limper calls. Flop is K46 all diamonds....Jake is on fire! The caller donks into me...$45! I decide to just call. I dont want to lose K/Q, K/J here. Turn is 7c. He donks again for $45. I pop it to $120 and he calls! River is a 10d! He checks, I bet $150 and he calls without a diamond in his hand!
Our table breaks and we disperse. I choose this table that is full of internet donkeys. I could hear them from my table talking about how bad live players are, spouting SPR, and using words like fold equity and value, and talking about how bad Phil Ivey plays. *eyeroll*
I dont get involved in too many hands. I folded pre 2 hands where I would have flopped the nuts and won massive pots. 20/20.
There is a straddle on almost every pot....not me of course...I prefer a different type of live straddle....if you know what I mean. Geez...I sound horrible...can you tell that it has been awhile??!!??
I pick up A/Qh in MP and raise. 2 callers. Flop is Q high 2 hearts! Yay me...I bet a 3/4 sized bet A wee high, I know but I know that this guy would call if he had a Q or any drawing hand and I wanted him to think that I was protecting my hand against the flush draw. Turn is an A. This is where I might have misstepped. I bet about 2/3 of the pot. He folded. After thinking about this later...I think that I should have checked the A...let him think that it was a scare card and maybe he could bluff the little live girl player off of the pot. Hmmm.
SO...sitting doing nothing, trying not to fall asleep at the table....I seriously have no stamina anymore. I am dealt Q/9s on the button. I raise. The SB reraises me...weel, so much for stealing the blinds! The BB calls, so I decide to call as well...didnt want them to think that I was stealing!
Flop is Ks/Qd/8s. The SB bets 1/3 of the pot!!???!!! The BB folds. I calls. Turn is the 10s. Sb checks. At this point, I am confused. I am thinking A/K maybe a set of Ks...I bet 3/4 of the pot. Then he starts talking....asking "why so much"..."how much do you have behind"? He then calls. River is a 3c. He checks...and this is where I totally lose it...wtf am I thinking???? I look at him...think about the talking and sitting with the 2nd fucking nuts, I CHECK! He shows a set of Ks!!!! I could have easily gotten another hundred or so out of him!!!
So, at this point, I decide that I have played way past my expiration date and call it a night(or morning if you wanna get technical).
So, I leave dead even....I suppose that I should be happy that I fought my way back from a $1000 deficit but I'm not. I am not happy about alot of things right now and I think that it has seriously impacted poker.
I have never felt so disillusioned.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Stagnant
Do you ever have one of those sessions where you seem to win and lose the same $200 over and over? And how is it that when I have these sessions, the number is always $200?
So, $2/$5 at The V...slightly distracted but overall focused. The first pot that I rake in is a bluff....folded to me on the button, I have 10/6s, raise and take it.
I then make a stupid call...I have J/10 in the C/O in a limped/family pot. It gets checked to the river on a board of 6/4/3/Q/10. This aggressive asian female to my right makes a pot sized bet on the river and of course, I have to play sheriff and call. She shows K/10. Bye Bye, $25.
I then move to the main game and sit and fold and sit and fold. I pick up enough small pots on the flop to stay even.
I did manage to pull of a nice bluff. This guy would always raise in LP when folded to him(which usually ended up being my BB) and I would always end up folding the garbage that I had but this time, I played back at him. He raised to $25 and I reraise to $60. He calls. Flop is nine high, I bet $75 and he folds. I never even looked at my cards.
I then pick up a set of 6s on a suited heart flop and check call the flop and turn, hoping to fill up. I knew that the guy had flopped a flush. The funny thing is that I checked the river to him and he checks back...and shows A/10h....the NUTS! He checked the nuts, in position, on the river!!!
So, I am down to like $275. I dont want to rebuy...I should have but I dont. I am dealt KK in the BB in a limped pot. I raise to $40 and the 2 seat calls me. He says that it is a tilt call....he had just lost $300 with the K high flush against an A high flush to the worst player at the table.
Flop is 10/7/3 rainbow. I throw in a bill. HE CALLS! Turn is an 8...I push my remaining $125 in...thinking that I am beat and HE CALLS! River is a 4, I flip my KK up and he says, nice hand. I asked him if he had 8/9 and he was tilting, so he wouldnt tell me. He changed tables and about an hour later, I went over and batted my eyelashes and said...8/9??? and he said yes.
So, tonight, I need to play well and have the deck hit me in the face....not too much to ask for, right?
So, $2/$5 at The V...slightly distracted but overall focused. The first pot that I rake in is a bluff....folded to me on the button, I have 10/6s, raise and take it.
I then make a stupid call...I have J/10 in the C/O in a limped/family pot. It gets checked to the river on a board of 6/4/3/Q/10. This aggressive asian female to my right makes a pot sized bet on the river and of course, I have to play sheriff and call. She shows K/10. Bye Bye, $25.
I then move to the main game and sit and fold and sit and fold. I pick up enough small pots on the flop to stay even.
I did manage to pull of a nice bluff. This guy would always raise in LP when folded to him(which usually ended up being my BB) and I would always end up folding the garbage that I had but this time, I played back at him. He raised to $25 and I reraise to $60. He calls. Flop is nine high, I bet $75 and he folds. I never even looked at my cards.
I then pick up a set of 6s on a suited heart flop and check call the flop and turn, hoping to fill up. I knew that the guy had flopped a flush. The funny thing is that I checked the river to him and he checks back...and shows A/10h....the NUTS! He checked the nuts, in position, on the river!!!
So, I am down to like $275. I dont want to rebuy...I should have but I dont. I am dealt KK in the BB in a limped pot. I raise to $40 and the 2 seat calls me. He says that it is a tilt call....he had just lost $300 with the K high flush against an A high flush to the worst player at the table.
Flop is 10/7/3 rainbow. I throw in a bill. HE CALLS! Turn is an 8...I push my remaining $125 in...thinking that I am beat and HE CALLS! River is a 4, I flip my KK up and he says, nice hand. I asked him if he had 8/9 and he was tilting, so he wouldnt tell me. He changed tables and about an hour later, I went over and batted my eyelashes and said...8/9??? and he said yes.
So, tonight, I need to play well and have the deck hit me in the face....not too much to ask for, right?
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