New Month/New Attitude

I am so sorry to everyone who keeps emailing me asking when to expect a new post. I have only promised this 100 times over the past couple of weeks. It is just so hard to write about poker when you are not playing well/not winning.
So April, royally sucked ass. I am not even going to post how stuck I am/was because I am so sick of thinking about it. Basically I had 2 sessions where I lost more than 2 buyins and then the rest of the month was basically winning/losing the same $200-$300 over and over. I only played 2 days of the last 10 days of the month($1/$2) because I was feeling so defeated.
Only 3 hands from those 2 sessions even stand out in my mind. The first one happened at The Venetian(actually they all happened at The Venetian, I so need to stop playing there, for reasons other than poker, mainly) I had JJ utg. There was this loose aggressive player at the table who raised preflop almost every hand. My friend Daniel was sitting to my right and had played with him earlier in the day so he filled me in on his playing style(I love poker buddies!) Now, I know my rep at this table, if I raise, I am probably not going to get any action, so I limp. I hear the cries now.....limping with Jacks...Oh my god...what are you doing???? Trust me...geez. lol
So, I limp and sure enough..crazy guy raises to $13. 4 callers to me. My original plan had been to raise but with all of these callers, I decided to just call. I am not sure why I had decided to do this but set mining sounded like the way to go. Flop is J/10/6 2 clubs. SB bets $10(into a $70 pot!!!) I raise to $60. The OR(in the 1 seat) then shows his hand to the dealer, ranting about how he cant believe that he is going to fold and shit....which leads me to believe that he has a J. This donkey is not laying down an over pair. The SB calls. The turn is a 10c. SB checks and I bet $100, leaving $150 behind. I figured that he had to have had some sort of a draw, since I thought that the OR had the case J and I was hoping that it was the flush draw. He calls. Now thisis where most players are idiots. He has now put $173 in to this pot and I only have $150 behind. He should have given this situation some thought. He should have realized that by calling the $100 on the turn that he was going to have to call the $150 on the river. I dont recall what the river was but the $150 went it and the guy folded. Geez. He folded getting almost 4 to 1 on the call. He showed the case J. Apparently the OR had a 10 as he kept moaning about how the pot would have been his as he made trips on the turn.
So, the last 2 hands were from a session a few nights ago. I was card dead for about 2.5 hours, I had only raised once from the C/O with A/K and whiffed. I am not betting into 4 people on a paired face card board. I then pick up JJ in the C/O and raise to $12 and get 3 callers. The board comes 10/7/4, 2 spades. Checks to me, I bet $30, the button calls the SB calls and then MP goes all in for $63!!! Im like WTF???? I mean I have to call...it is $32 more to me for a $200 pot! But I also want to protect my hand and I figured that these other 2 guys have draws so I push all in for $200 more which covers both of those guys. They fold. The guy shows his pocket 9s when he hits a set on the turn but then the river is an 8 and I make a straight. He then bitches about how I sucked out(????). I dont have to say anything because 2 guys closer to him not so quietly inform him that I was a huge favorite when the money went it.
Then the last hand which took the session for a $100 winner to a break even session for me. UTG raises to $15. This is the first time that he has raised since he sat down and really has not played many hands at all. I knew that I was beat. I know...Im a "soul reader"....but I knew right then that I was beat. I look down at pocket Qs...god damnit! Of course, this is where I suck and even though I know that I am beat, I call and then get it all in on a 7 high board. He shows pocket As and I thank god that he only had $100 behind.

So, this is a new month. A fresh start. My goals for this month are pretty simple. Learn how to win again. Which really means that I have to put April behind me and stop playing like everyone is going to hit their 2 outters against me.
Everything in my life is so complicated right now. I just want poker to be easy so that I have the mental energy to devote to all of the other screwed up aspects of my life. God, that already sounds negative.